Good Bye 2009!

Wow...where did the year go!

2009 was a pretty good year...I didnt really sleep at all this year thanks to being horribly pregnant at the start and having little Dexxie! But I wouldn't trade it for anything! My love for my husband got stronger..he's a saint for putting up with my grouchiness sometimes. We also bought our first house towards the end of the year and that was TOTALLY awesome! So happy about it.

So tomorrow will be the start of a whole new Decade...WTF! Where did the last one go...where was I those 10 years. Hmm I know that I rang in the year 2000 with my best friend at the time Shantal, we braved the Y2k fears and snuck a drink while her parents through a party. Oh man I was 14(about to be 15!) I went on to have crazy high school years, pretend I was in love. In 2003 I graduated and moved out on my own as my whole family moved to Alaska, and I stayed behind. It was soo scary but taught me alot. It also proved to me how much I need them. They came home by the start of 2004 and on January 23rd of that year I went on the first date with my Hubby. Basically we have been together ever since. In Febuary 2006 we were engaged and by the same time in 2007 we were married. I started and stopped a few different jobs and by mid 2008 we were FINALLY pregnant! Fast forward to January 31st 2009 and Dexter Ray was born to us. That sweet little man that has only completed our lives even more. I must say it was sooo much fun to finish out this Decade as a mommy!

Who knows what the next 10 years will bring. Hopefully things only get better. Maybe a few more kiddos, and alot of love. Health and happiness for all of my friends and family. Happy happy New Years!


P.s. I guess my resolution this next year is to just keep on getting fit! Thats about it.

Quickie update...

So its been busy around here, will update full length soon. Currently working on party ideas for Dexies big 1st!!

Starting back on the diet thing after the 1st...too much good holiday food around my house STILL! EEkk...

Have you been good this year??

I have, I think so at least.

I am in love with this holiday season. I think mainly because its my first as a mom. And not just a preggo lady. As of today I finished my shopping.. I think I should of bought stock in Playskool and Fisher Price! And everything is wrapped thanks to my Mother in law for babysitting for a couple hours.<3

What are some of your traditions..I'd looove to know!?!

Around here we visit both family houses...to My in-laws first and then after that to my families casa. All on Christmas eve to open gifts and hang. Then on Christmas Eve we usually eat at both houses and get down with the RockBand. Family style. The band gets back together every Holiday. Then in just a month or so after Christmas is Dexter's Birthday!! His very 1st one. I will be a sappy happy mess about it. Like any mom Im just sooo in love and proud of him. Did I mention yet that he walks? Not gracefully but its walking..

That's bout it! Ill update again soon. Lots to write about but don't want to just ramble.

Lazy blogger again

I really have been getting my lazy on when it comes to updating my blog more often. I think its just because we have alot going on (or it feels like it)

Dex has started to walk, not consistently but hes doing it. Getting better and better every day. My heart just melts<33 Still has only the 4 teeth, though I am pretty sure our ridiculously sleepless nights might have something to do with some more coming in. The kid is crazy! And I love every bit of him.

Cody and me are doing great, His chargers are winning often. So that means a happy hubby for me:) I have lost 20lbs so far. From 205 to 185. Im slacking a bit this week but I know I will get back on track. The key for me is to track my food. And i got lazy for a few days about it. Back to tracking I go!

Have fun Christmas shopping with the horde yall!

Thanks...

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Im pretty excited today. Its Dexie doo's first Thanksgiving and it makes it feel even more warm and cozy. I've always been a big fan of the holidays. I love love love hanging with family and the good food is just a plus. Now we have little ones around for the first time since my little brother was tiny (he's 14 :) ) Today's plan is to do some laundry, drink lots of coffee, watch some cartoons with Dexter. Then I will shower, make some Deviled eggs and throw a couple pies in the oven. Then me and the boys will get ready and head over to my In-laws house for the first round of grubbin. After we've showed off the kiddo and eaten and eaten we will head over to my folks house. I shall then proceed to have some wine from which I have been abstaining. Shoot it feels like I've been abstaining from anything with carbs so some of those too. Im sure there will be naps at some time today, for both Dexter, Charlie and the Grown-ups and some leftovers for the pups.

*speaking of pups* My dog is pregnant, due in January. Wasnt supposed to happen but we will have Pomeranian/Shetland Mix pups. Probably super cute!


On to the thanks...
I am soooo sooo thankful for this year. Its been a roller coaster. I am so thankful that we were given the awesome opprotunity to buy our first house. I'm thankful that I had a wonderful pregnancy that ended this past January and I became a mommy to a fun fun little guy. He has opened me up heart and soul. I never new life til him. I am super thankful that I have a husband that loves me at my worst and my best. That has been here by my side since day 1 six years ago. It feels like yesterday and he still gives me butterflies.
I am so thankful that I got another wonderful year with my dad, and that I am able to see him everyday. He is one of the most amazing people I know. So is my mom, she is the strongest women with so much heart.
I am so so very thankful for Codys folks who we have sooo much love for. They have made so much possible for us, and we are forever grateful. They are awesome people.
Geez I could go on forever....Lets just say I am soo thankful!

Puke if you must but Im a happy soul today.
I wish I could give more back, and maybe next year I will be able to.


I whole heartedly hope that if you are reading this that you have a great day. Eat well, love lots, and be safe.

Feeling it

Eek bad blogger I am. I have not posted in nearly a month! Too busy? Nah just a little lazier and too addicted to facebook I guess.

Whats been going on with us? Well we had a great Halloween, Dexter didnt dig it but hey hes a little fella. Next year will be alot more pleasant for him. Me and Cody hit up a fun Halloween party after trick or treating and had a nice little date out of it.


Since then we are just hanging out and passing time playing and TEETHING!! EEK. Dexter is growing and changing sooo much. No walking yet just a step or two and then a fall. Hes about to be 10 months old. And is getting 2 teeth at a time within and within weeks of the last set. Driving this momma crazy. He really really turns into a fussy mess during teething. Constant crying and little sleep and eating. Pretty brutal I must say. But I sure do love him.

I cannot wait to start Christmas shopping, hopefully a christmas bonus will make it a bit easier to do. I need to put some money aside for his party in January. Which I must say is coming so soon. Pretty sure we are going with a Sesame Street Theme since thats our favorite show to watch together. Thank god the sprout channel plays it several times a day.


As for me, after Halloween I got back on track with changing my eating habits and working out. Im not gonna call it a diet because its not. Its more or less me tracking my food, every bite and learning what is better for me. Im allowing myself a cheat day of sorts. But really its a cheat meal, and I still track it to make sure Im staying close to my calorie count for the day. Im trying to stay around 1100-1400 calories a day. Lots of protein, and Veggies. This time around I am not completely cuttin carbs because that just leads to me cheating my ass off constantly for cravings. Sooo Im simply adding in a small amount of good carbs in each meal. Like a small portion of carrots, or a small or half a baked potato. I do Oatmeal for breakfeast and it keeps me full until lunch. Somedays I make an egg and a microvable turkey sausage or bacon. Lots of water and a positive attitude. And I have snacks...when i start getting a little craving I drink a glass of water, then if Im still hungry and it cant wait for the next meal I have 10-15 mixed nuts, or a skim milk String Cheese.

I also made a motivation chart, for my eyes really. But I think I will put it on the fridge. Basically it has statements like "Get your head into the game", " You can do it" "Being Thin is gonna feel better that eating that junk tastes" You know stuff like that lol...But it helps. And now when i brush my hair and look in the mirror I give myself a pep talk. I can control my eating, I can find 5 minutes after a shower to stretch and do some easy excersises. I CAN DO IT! I am Strong, Powerful, and completely ABLE!

Im pretty excited about this new me, And Im loving every day as I make a difference to myself.
At the start of november I weighed in at 201.8lbs. As of today I am down to 190.0lbs exactly!! I havent seen 190 since like late 2007. Im ready to break into the 180's. And the the 170's and so on. Wish me luck. And if any of you are trying to lose too holler at me. we can be buddies! Im on sparkpeople.com my screename is starryeyedsntw.

Lazy day

Im enjoying a majorly lazy day today. If only my lil guy slowed down at all.

Hes getting over a cold that just wont go away, last week it was a runny nose and fever, this week its coughing and wheezing and diahrrea. Wish us luck that he beats it soon.


In other news I think Dexter is going to be a Lion for Halloween. I made the costume and it sorta still fits, Im afraid that he is too big for it now though, so maybe if money allows Ill go buy one.


I really want to make one of these soon.....its sooooooo awesome!















http://homemadebyjill.blogspot.com/2009/10/felt-playhouse.html



It slips over a standard card table. Bingo we have an ugly card table in the storage that is begging to have a Playhouse made to cover it up! Cannooot wait to make one.



Oh and I almost forgot.....Im in the process of losing weight so we can TTC again soon! YAY!!!!

Poodiddle

So its getting cold!
My mom, me and the babies tried to go to Fiddlesticks Farm this weekend but failed. It was just too rainy and cooollld. So next weekend hopefully. Ive never been and cannot wait to go!

Man Dex is learning so much every day. Im in utter awe at this kid. Im just a proud momma so forgive me raving about him:) He is 8-1/2 months old and starting this past weekend he is REALLY crawling. Belly off the floor and all. I thought for sure he would army crawl to his graduation. He is also babbling non stop. Saying mama, and dada. But to both of us lol. We are also attempting to pull up on everything. 75% failure rate ending in bumps, and bruises. He is getting better though. I cannot believe how fast time has gone by. Wowzers.

The baby fever is back hard core, probably to my husbands dismay. But we have agreed to wait until next year some time to start TTC. It will probably take us several months too. Im also completely not TTC until I can lose just a little weight. Maybe 20 or 30lbs. I really am scared of getting Pre Eclampsia while having a toddler too. I cannot do that to him, or risk the new baby. So its a waiting game. And I have great motivation to lose some more weight. Im at about 193-195 fluctuating. Soooo ideally around 165-175. Wish me luck!

House stuff is good, Im loving the fireplace. We have been using it nightly on these cool west texas nights. Mostly because we have old wall heaters still that neeed to be updated and we are scared of them lol. But it does good at warming the place. And it smells soooo festive.

Crazy 8's

Crazy 8's

Crazy 8's...took this from another blog!
I tag everyone who reads this to do it!!

8 things I am looking forward to...
1. The Cooler weather!
2. Girl's Night Out Friday evening!! <-- i second that
3. Halloween
4. Dexter turning 9 months old!
5. Carving some pumpkins
6. Finishing all this house crap. Glad to be moved in though.
7. Taking Dex to Fiddlesticks farm!
8. The end of 09!

8 things I did yesterday...
1. Had a headache all day.
2. Hung out at home for the most part.
3. Got fatter
4. Tried to have a healthy breakfast and then got sick from it.
5. Watched Dex pull up to the coffee table, then hit his face on it moments later.
6. did alot of laundry:(
7. Dreamed of being rich.
8. Ended it with the same ol headache

8 things I wish I could do.....
1. Be just a lil rich...just a lil.
2. get some awesome photos of Dexter taken.
3. Get a night job for some extra mooola
4. Get rid of these headaches
5. decorate the house how I want it.
6. pay off the car and loan.
7. Have an unlimited amount of money shopping spree for just one weekend <-- me too
8. Have enough money to help my folks in the future,

8 shows I watch.....
1. Any home shoes
2. a lot of sesame street and sprout TV...geesh
3. Dancing with the Stars
4. The Biggest Loser
5. Dexter
6. whale wars
7. Man vs Wild
8. any other boring reality show, name it Im there.




In other news, We are moved in and unpacked, but our work has just begun. This need to be updated and worked on it seems. Soooo no housewarming party til the paint is on the walls and our bathroom doesnt look like a trainwreck. After this weekend it should look pretty nice.

I painted the front living room a pretty gray that IM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH!

Oh yeah Dexter is pulling up onto all kinds of stuff. Thats big news around here. He still crawls all crazy. Not quite a real crawl but it gets the kid where he wants to go. He will probably skip the real crawling for now. Im soo excited to see him learn new stuff everyday. And another part of me is sooo sad to see him become less and less a baby baby. Make me want to start trying for #2....we will see

A whole month, new house, and 8 mnths old.

Busy bees, thats what we have been. Stressed out busy, tired bees.

We are finally in our new house offically as of last night. Everything is moved. And you could see the strain of it all on our faces. We have moved as a couple many times. But this was the hardest of them all. Having a busy crawling 8 month old doesn't help:) But hes just too cute. The only problem so far is when he kerplunked while crawling and face planted on the linoleum. Blood and tears and me wanting to vomit. I can't take seeing my baby's blood like that.

Our new house is great. I will try to take pics soon. Its just a great old brick home with character that was loved alot by a nice old couple that once had it built. Its nothing fancy but its perfect.

Okay anyways, I better get to unpacking.

So....tough decision but the best one.

Tonight I made a horribly tough decision but in the end it will be the best one. After going back to work 2 months ago we started on a journey that had its perks but also great downfalls. My child is sick every week from daycare and it is sooo expensive.
Though we come out slightly ahead in the end it just doesnt add up to be worth the trouble for the small amount of extra cash after daycare. I can make half of the extra cash by working online and the rest is just disposable income that we wont miss. And if we do we will just get over it.

I quit tonight. I sent in a letter of resignation like a wimp. It KILLED me to be away from my child everyday. I just cannot do it. And that was not the only reason but it sure was my main one. I liked getting out of the house and all but I feel sooo bad that my child has gotten sick constantly because of Daycare. Not only that But I leave the house at 8am to take him to daycare and go to work and I do not get home until almost 7 each day. Thats alot of time I am missing in his little world. Is that worth a couple hundred bucks? Nope. Its not even worth 500 bucks or 1000. I can work hard from home and get a night job and be happier as a mother that can spend the day teaching, feeding, snuggling, and kissing on my sweet son. On top of that it will enrich my marriage which fell unto alot of stress with going back to work.

Soo....who knows where this saga goes. Wish me luck.
I do know I am the happiest momma on earth that I get to smell my sweet baby and cuddle him whenever I please now. I have a wonderful husband that supports my decisions fully and completely and an understanding family. I am a rich woman when it comes to life. And I am happy in that.

Fall away

I am so glad its fall...

So we bought a house!!!! We should close on it in a couple weeks. We are in love with it and its a perfect starter home. Its not huge but we passed up bigger houses for the uniqueness that this one has. Ill post some pics after we get the keys! Yay for no more rent house. I hate this place and Im ready to leave.

Home buying is sooo stressful. It was a big test for us in our marriage but we passed it! You never really know everything about each other I guess. But that's the beauty of it. I love my boys.

Work has been great. I am staying very busy with everything. The last of the old crew quit this past week which wasnt a suprise. Im actually relieved as there was alot of tension. But we have an awesome new crew going and we are more productive than ever and getting better everyday.



So Dex is 7 months old. Where did time go? He is try sooooo hard to crawl but it will probably be halloween before he does it. He babbles all the time and can feed himself (trys to). He is doing good at daycare but I still hate that I cannot be here all the time with him. Maybe one day in the future or definetly when #2 comes around I will be able to.

Lets head to the south beach...

Im on the South Beach Diet (way of life) and loving it. Granted I am only on week 1 about to start week 2 of Phase 1. I have already lost 7 lbs. I am pretty sure thats water weight but hey its weight. I finally feel like I CAN DO THIS. I can get down to the weight that I maintained all through high school and so on. When I met cody I started gaining and 6 years ago I weighed around 145ish. And on my tall frame thats pretty good. I liked that size. I had curves but could wear cute clothes. I'd settle for getting down to 155 or 160. Both of those weight are way better than the 200lbish that Ive been before and after Dexter. I am sooo thankful that ALL of my baby weight came off after Dex. Now its time to work on all the fat that came before him. Im determined to lose it. And now I finally have a plan and motivation.

Today I was having some killer sugar cravings...I mean KILLER. So I decided to make some South Beach friendly brownies since I was also making regular ones for my mom.

They are pretty yummy.

Heres the RECIPE

Chocolate Black Bean Brownies

1 can black beans (can use white beans instead), drained, rinsed well, drained
4 large eggs
1 tsp. baking powder
3 - 4 T. unsweetened cocoa powder (good quality)
1/2 tsp. espresso powder (optional) [see my note just below]
1 tsp. vanilla
2 or 3 T. oil
2/3 - 3/4 c. Splenda
walnuts
dark/semisweet chocolate chips

(I sometimes add 1/2 tsp. almond extract for a change of flavor. I guess you could experiment here too with other extracts. This last time I added Watkins Caramel extract--that is now my favorite addition)

Make sure to put 2 eggs, beans, remaining ingredients (except nuts and chips), then last 2 eggs. Your blender will have a harder time blending the black beans. (can try a food processor, but my blender works better at fully incorporating the beans). Stir in walnuts and chips (or sprinkle over the top after batter is in pan). Pour into a sprayed 8 x 8 pan. Bake at 350 or 375 25-30 min.


I wrapped mine and froze them afterwards. I had one today while lounging in my bath robe. (a small portion *pat on back* with some Lite Cool Whip.

Now Im ready for a healthy dinner and another great start tomorrow.

Busy bee's

Sorry for no update in awhile.
We have been busy busy with work and daycare, etc. Which by the way is going well. Our daycare is fabulous so far and Dex is always so happy when I drop him off/ or pick him up. We only have had one set back lately with a case of what we believe was Roseola. Which causes high fevers and is followed by a rash over the body. It was his first real sickness and it was tough on the whole family. But daddy gave him some good snuggles and got to stay home with him one day, and I stayed home the next day to give him Motherly loving:) And we all survived.

Work for me has been fun, and tiring at the same time. I've adjusted well. I get home a little before 7 and that seems so late. But I still am getting at least 3-4 hours after I get home with Dexter and Cody before bed along with a couple hours before he goes to daycare.

In other news Cody and I had an awesome movie date on Saturday. It made me feel like a teenager again. Holding hands and cuddling while watch Harry Potter.

Im also reading The Sookie Stackhouse Series. They are the books that HBO's TrueBlood is based on. Hello awesome!! Way better than twilight in my opinion. I'm on book 7 of 9.


I almost forgot! Dexter is 10 days away from being 6 months old. He is 22lbs and 28 inches long. So basically he's the size of a 1 year old. He looks more like his handsome Daddy everyday. He has sitting down conquered until he see's something interesting then he faceplants. He wants to crawl bad but is just not coordinated enough just yet. And that mysterious tooth has yet to show back up. We are still not back to sleeping through the night but its no biggie. He will eventually. He is growing so much constantly I can totally understand why he is restless at night.

Well I guess that's all for now. I will try to find something fun to blog about later.

Shots suck.

Dex finally got his first shots this past tuesday. They were his 2mnths since I neglected to get them. He hated it and felt miserable afterwords. This round was to appease the people around me but it will be his last round for quite awhile. I have received my exemption form and plan to use it til he's at least a few years old. Whats in shots just scares me. And I didnt have any til I was 5.

Anyways off of the old shots...

This weekend should be awesome! I plan to have some prickly pear margaritas:) And watch the parade.

Dexter's little tooth has still not reappeared. Oh hum.

I go back to work on Tuesday!! I'm really excited about working. Just not the leave my baby at daycare part. Poor poor boy:( I've heard great things about his daycare though so that helps ease the worry.

Have a happy 4th everyone!!

Going back to work, and teeth?

Hello everyone. So no update on the shots because I was given the wrong date for the appointment. Good thing though, because I think me and Dex have a cold going on. Poor baby:(

Speaking of poor baby. Have you ever heard of a tooth showing up then disappearing? Today Dex clearly had a little tooth poking through on the bottom. There was also a little red blister next to it. I was soo excited. He took a nap and had some tylenol and by the time Cody came home it was gone. Im going crazy. He is also doing really good at sitting up unsupported. For at least a minute! Im crazy proud.

And in some bittersweet news! Im going back to work! Yay because geesh I miss work. But ughh because I love my son and I am gonna miss him something crazy. I feel like Im going to miss out on his days:(
I will be going back to the Pet Store. Which makes me soo excited. I hated having to quit when I found out I was preggo a year exactly ago. I had intention of being a stay at home mom for at least a year but times are tough and the opprotunity presented itself now. It will be a good thing for us. I cannot wait to get back into the swing of things. Dexter will start daycare. UGH! But I found a great one by accident really. Hopefully it will all fit together just right.

I better get off of here and stop rambling.

Almost 5 months.

So in preparing to go to Daycare eventually Dex has to get his shots. Tomorrow to be exact. Originally I though I would stay Home until he went to school. But I need to get a job badly. It will help us pay off some things. Ugh I hate it. I do not want him to be hurting. But even more I do not want some adverse reaction to happen. So wish us luck. Ill update with some new pics that are dying to get off my camera and with how he did tomorrow night or the next.

4 months 1 week. Where is time going...

Hello hello,
Can you believe its already almost JUNE! Why is this year just flying by. Before I know it Ill have a one year old. Things are going alot better. I climbed outta my 'feel sorry for myself' hole. Tomorrow I am working at the Pet store to fill in for someone, then me and Cody are going to have a nice dinner.*yay*. Should be a nice little weekend. A weekend with the little smernts...

Hope everyone has a good one.

-savannah

Ready for a new month!

So our little guy is growing growing growing. Ill  post new pictures  soon. Carrots have become his fave food. (other than milk:) ) He is teething crazy. It seems like gallons of drool. And fussiness. But we will make it through this.

Me, I’m okay. I’m trying so hard to stay motivated and lose this weight. I’m working out to some videos 3 or 4 times a week. Drinking lots of water and eating less. So we will have to see.

Cody, I guess he’s great. He got a new washer and dryer. He loves laundry. I Know I’m lucky:) I really hope we can spend some kind of time together sometime soon. Sometimes it feels like I hardly ever see him. And I don’t want to go down that path. So if you friends with him too please TELL HIM! Take savannah on a date or something! I’ve tried asking. <---and I’m still waiting.

tiny update

So it was a terrible week. Im so glad its over. Lets all start fresh tomorrow and take it day by day. I had been working out every day and eating great. Then the stress and craziness of this week hit and boom there it all went. And I felt it. I now feel bloated and just plain terrible. So tomorrow is a new day and Im going to get back on track. I must get in better shape.

Dexter Update! Cuter than ever...<3 Realized he has feet. And can grab things if he tries really hard. Im anxiously waiting for his first laugh. COME ON DEX!

Lets go forward....

I Threw in the towel....

So...it was going better. But not becoming easier.
After a whole week of being frustrated, fussy, and sharing a bucket of tears I had to make the hard decision to just let breastfeeding go. And thats okay. I will have another baby in a couple years and can do it again and maybe not make the same mistakes that led us in this path.
I do know that I looooove my little guy. And breastfeeding was the best bonding experience for the first 3 months or so. When it evolved into this difficult situation though I started Hating it. We got so off track. Its only fair to both of us that it just ends.
Trying to get him back to the breast only was keeping him from getting full, not having enough wet diapers, crying and fussiness, suddenly not sleeping through the night. Uggh I can go on. And how can I forget that hes got a little tooth on the bottom thats just right under the gums coming through. It just adds to the frustration. Im grieving not breastfeeding. But hey, Ill get over it. Time to enjoy my son. I wont lose a minute more to this frustration. I tried and I tried HARD!

In other news, Im sending positive thoughts to my great "aunt" Nancy<3 She is having Emergency surgery for cancer of the colon in the morning. Shes just the sweetest lady ever. A real Pistol!

UPDATE!

So 24 hours ago I was beat down, tired, and ready to give up.
The situation with Dex not breastfeeding has gotten so much better. Not perfect, and not like it used to be, but getting better.
I can now get him to eat eventually. Though I'm still afraid he's not getting enough. I Gave in a few times and gave a bottle yesterday and today. I just don't want him to be hungry hungry. I think we are on the right track. I have however promised him and me that if the situation isnt mostly better by this weekend we will just move on from it. I'm not willing to give up precious moments to this frustration any longer. We are taking it feeding by feeding, taking deep breaths, and cuddling alot. I dont know why I am so hell bent on breastfeeding. I've heard several times already to just give him formula and not stress about it. It means something to me though. I planned on breastfeeding since I wanted to get pregnant. I wanted a challenge. I wanted to give my baby the best food possible. And I will just have to come to terms that formula was good enough for me as a baby and will be good for him. So continue sending some prayers our way on that topic.

Otherwise Wow our boy is getting soooo big. He just bounces away in his little jumperoo, can watch tv, pinch you (lol), and tons of other fun things. Hes just such a sweet boy that is soooo interested in the world around him.

UGH! Sound the Alarm.

Trouble in paradise.
Im at my wits end. It all started the saturday before last when I worked 9-6 at the pet store. That was the longest Dexter went without breastfeeding. He takes a bottle like a champ and that exactly our problem at the momen. So much so that my supply started taking a turn for the worst. Thanks to a weekend of power pumping EVERY hour its back but he just won't nurse. The only time I can get him on in at his 6am half assleep feed. Otherwise he screams bloody murder at the mere sight of my boob! Goodness. I called a lactation consultant and got little help. She just said keep trying.

So far I have tried

• Warm bath with baby. (supposed to induce nursing) Ha!
• Nursing in motion (worked 1 day until he wised up)
• Nursing when sleepy( our best bet so far) Ive tricked him a handful of times.
• Pumping first to induce let down. (end up with a mad baby covered in milk) lol

Sigh, so we are going to keep trying. Today we have gone bottle free except for 5 ounces this morning. And Ive gotten him to latch twice for 3 minutes each time. I think out of mere starvation. So I dont think the technique is going to work. But I know he got milk both times. Hes also been sleeping a ton today. Then again thats probably from all the crying we have both done. If we havent made any progress in a few days Im going to just quit and pump only. Im afraid our little breastfeeding team is coming to an end. On the other hand I just dont want to give it up that easy. Just because my lil son is soooo stubborn. There has to be a way to fix this. Pray for us. Pray I dont lose my mind:)

Oh yeah my mothers day was nice! I drank alot of wine to soothe away my sorrow.
If you have any tips you think might help let me know!

Mothers Day

"My mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being. I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune. ~Graycie Harmon"

Happy Mothers Day Everyone!
Hug a mom.

Im so genuinely delighted to be able to celebrate this Mothers Day! It is my first as a mom. As it is also for many of my dear friends since we have all become mothers for the first time or again this year. Congrats to us all! It truly is the most amazing thing in the world.

I have all new respect for my mom. I love her soooo dearly. This has always been a favorite Holiday of mine because she is just so special to me. She has helped make me the person I am, and am forever becoming. You are my favorite woman<3 You are stong, loving, compassionate, TRUE!, unique, and beautiful. Thank you for being my mom.

Nothing has made me feel more complete than becoming Dexters momma. This time last year He was just a tiny embryo and I had no idea I was pregnant yet. Here a year later and I have a kooky, sweet, blue eyed baby loving me with all his heart. I cant wait to see him grow. I tear up still sometimes when Im cradleing him to sleep. Hes just the sweetest thing.

Way to go mommas out there. Only we know how tough, crazy, stressful, yet Wonderful, fufilling, exciting, and full of love our jobs are.

I dont expect much from mothers day. All I want is to spend it snuggling my boy and hanging with people I love<3

Hope you all have a good one!

Who knew.

Things have been going great.
Starting this week I've finally felt like me again.
Who knows if its my hormones levelling out or if its the Medicine. (that i needed)
*sigh* It just feels good.
Dexter is at a fun stage where hes so awake and alert for the most part of the day. With little naps a few times. He's sooo smiley. We are having a lil trouble with breastfeeding. But Im starting to really think its because he's starting to teethe. Today has been the worst. I held a cold teether up to his mouth and he chomped on it for awhile. He has no interest in eating though. Poor guy is just plain fussy right now.

Goodness I love being a mommy. What a blessing for sure. Im sooo goofy in love with this child. I just want to shower him with snuggles and kisses all day. <3

This weekend is Mothers day! My first yay. I already got my present in the form of some cloth diapers Im gonna give a go at. I've always loved mothers day simply because I LOVE my momma sooo much. Im honored to be in the mommy club....

Ekk I better get off of here. Dex is stirring

Take a moment

To evaluate your situation. To breathe.
To experience. To Think. To enjoy.
To love. To appreciate.
To have a little fun.

To Live.

Ive been needing a moment to reflect. Things can be so crazy. Its easy to lose myself and feel so resentful. Yet not really know why. My baby is 3 months old yet some days I'm still just not back on track emotionally. I really am starting to think I'm causing my husband strife. Im not meaning to. But I guess becoming a mom changes your world 100% Nothing is the same. Goodbye to everything you did before. Im okay with that. I looooooove my little guy. The trasition is so hard sometimes though. I guess there are just moments when I feel like nothing much has changed for him. He still gets to do everything that he did before. He doesnt have to consider lugging a rugrat around all the time. I do. So I get frustrated. Then again I'm afully too proud. I dont take help easily at all. So Its not like Im good at expressing what I need.

Im working on that. I Promise Cody. Don't lose faith in me please. I feel very unbalanced and somedays I really must just take a moment. To find it all again. To not get caught up in emotions. Because they are like waves and they arent the same from one moment to the next.

I Love my life, My husband, My son. They are all I Truly want or need in this world. I need to find some inner peace. And to not forget the many good things life has given me. I would be devestated without them. They are my life.<3

Meet Steve…

 

Steve After her Hair cut and Bath!

It’s been almost a year since I lost my little dogs Charlie and Baby. Charlie came to me as a matted skinny little yorkie that I gave all my love to. He was like my first baby. I had him for 4 years, and he was about 1 year old when I got him. Baby I got about a year after Charlie, she was this itsy bitsy puffball at the pet store I had just started working at. I Took her home and loved her to bits. We also have a Shetland Sheepdog named Bandit that we got from the pet store as well. He had a very very rough start at life. He was very healthy when we got him but about a month later he got what we believe was parvo. It was a hard fight, and many all nighters spent keeping him alive. He thankfully is still with us. I love him tons!

When Baby and Charlie died I told everyone that I couldn’t ever get another dog. Bandit would be my last. It is soo hard to lose one, let alone two. Well, I didn’t keep that promise. The other day I started thinking about another dog, but I knew a puppy would be way to much to deal with along with a baby. So I decided that we needed to open our hearts to one that was on borrowed time. I made several trips to the pound before I found her.

Steve Before with extreme Mats

There she was in cage 20. These big brown eyes smiling at me. She wasn’t scared, wasn’t restless. She just stared happily at me. Her coat was long and severely matted all the way to her tail. And that was it. I knew she was for me. Such a good little girl. I cringed at the though that because she looked so dirty and like so much work that she might be passed by for the cute chihuahua in the next cage, or the toy poodle across from her. And more than that I just knew she fit us. And boy does she.

Everyone just loves her! Bandit has fallen in love. Too bad she’s getting fixed dude. You can play later:) All she wants is to be loved<3 We have had zero problems with housebreaking which is great. And shes already protective of us when people are messing around out side. Which is a good thing. Because I’m nervous when I’m home alone.

Her name is Steve, yes Steve. If you know our style of pet names it fits perfectly. Strangely it fits so well. But her middle name is Daisy cause she needs a little bit of a girlie touch.

On an ending note: Adopt a shelter dog! There are great ones out there that are going to be put down. All they want is a furever home:) Take your time and find just the right dog for you. Adding a new pet should be well thought out so that they don’t end up back at the pound. Give a dog a home, it’ll be worth all the love they can offer!  

P.s. My little man is 3 months old! How time Flies. I just want to snuggle him to pieces<3

11 is like heaven. NOT!

So my little guy is a fun crazy 11 week old. According to babycenter.com he will be 3 months next week. Im still not sure how the weeks and months work when aging a baby.

Im also not sure where my head is anymore. I'm really feeling worn down and a little stressed about my mommahood this week. Its hard. Truly the hardest thing I have ever done. Its intoxicating, and amazing. Seeing those happy good morning smiles is sooo sweet. Then on the downside he acts like he's being murdered when hes in the car. A trip to the store makes me have anxiety. I spent a little of my fun money on a new car seat. The one that came with our travel system has this weird part where Dexters back goes that is uneven and seems like it would hurt. Tomorrow will be our offical first day with this one. Wish me luck. I hope that the uncomfortable car seat was the problem.

Oh yeah I almost forgot. I wanted to write on here that he had his very first taste of cereal today. Off the spoon he just spit it out. Which is expected hes only 3 months. I also put some in a bottle. Hes been sooo very fussy and my supply is in decline because I have been dumb with what i eat and the trip to AZ. Trying to fix it, and keep Dex satisfied. He enjoyed it and fell into a wonderful sleep shortly after. So ahhh me time.

I have also been baking alot lately. Hello new craft basically. Ive made tons of these little cake pops that are fab u lous! Invented a few sweet treats that I forgot to take pics of, as well as made some molded homeade peanut butter cups. Anyone wanna be my baking buddy.

Also does anyone want to start a play group for our kiddos?

10 Weeks Old.

Hello everyone, how was everyone’s Easter? Ours was great. We woke up and got dressed and then headed to my family’s house for the usual weekend yummy break feast ! After my Mom, my Sister, her Kyle, Charlotte and me went to the park so she could find (pick up) hehe Easter eggs. It was so cute. And windy as hell. After that I called the cops on about 20 mexicans (sorry) because they seem to think they can drive IN the park. Like on the grass. Hello Illegal. I dont think so. Call me the park police. I went back to my Moms and me and my little family headed to Cody’s Mom’s house. Wee took some cute pics and hung out for awhile then it was back to my moms casa for some yuummmmy food

<3 Burgers, hot dogs and all things horrible for a diet! Who cares was what i was thinking. I thought my week was horrible anyway. I ate so bad on our road trip. Tons of Slim Jims, chips, and gatorade. Haha. Damn the gas stations lack of nutrition. Throw in a turkey sandwich and that was my diet for like 4 days. Suprisingly I lost 4lbs in the past 2 weeks. But I’m simply going to credit it to breastfeeding because it certainly wasn’t me eating well. I did walk alot though through the various ghost towns we visited. Hopefully it will slowly continue. Ill be happy when I just don’t have to shop in the Plus size section. Or XXL:) Its just not for me.

In Dexter NEWS! He’s growing sooo fast. Im guessing about 15 or 16lbs since he’s wearing size 2 diapers and 6 month clothes. He needs to slow his roll though. I seriously miss my little skinny newborn. But I do love waking up to an alert smiley little fella. I’m in love! He has been trying to put alot of weight on his little legs so we put him in the jumperoo a few times. Hes BOUNCED! just a lil but he’ll figure it out someday. He’s also a major talker. Just coos, and blabs incoherently tons. He’s eating very well, and hasn’t had any feeding issues in a while. He was taking just a couple of long naps a day, but since i mentioned that he decided to pull a fast one. Now its tons of naps all day long. Unpredictably.

We are also firmly finally decided to delay vaccines until a year at least. I’ve been reading so much on it. And I’ve already rescheduled them once and will be cancelling the appointment for sure now. In the event that he has to go to daycare we will vaccine a little but I dont see that happening so we are gonna be shot free. Thats how all of my mothers children were and her mothers children. And no one had any problems.

Do you have an opinion on Vaccines? If so Id love to hear it. But no hateful comments please. That isn’t what this blog is for.

hmmm 8 Weeks

So, my fella is 2 months old! Time flies when your having fun right. Hes cooing and trying to talk to me its sooo sweet. Hes also starting to try and put his weight on his legs and doin mini pushups! And the smiles are infectious…Im addicted to them. In just a couple days we are heading to Arizona to see family. YAY. I hope to stay on my diet and not gain back anything Ive lost. I have always been fuller figured. But still a good size. I was happy with it. I wore mediums and larges. But in the past 3 years ive gotten pretty heavy. I gained 50lb before i got pregnant, than 50 more total during my pregnancy. Thank goodness 30 of it came off the first few weeks i was home after Dex was born, then 20 more a month or so later. I guess it was mostly water weight and such. Now im working on the stuff that was there for the past few years. Ive made a good start. Im 6 lbs lighter today than the day I was when I found out I was Pregnant. Hopefully by the end of the year I might be able to fit into some of my old clothes. .itsnot really that funny hehe but i have several pairs of pants in every size from 9 to 20. Geez. I guess i dont get an excuse to buy new clothes until I get smaller than that. I havent been a 9 in AGES sooo im not too worried about new clothes. Id be stoked to get into any of my jeans under a size 16!  And I know I will Eventually. Thanks to this kid I get to burn calories nursing, NEVER get to eat a meal with 2 hands. When he naps the last thing I think about doing is eating. And get to carry is 14lb+ butt around all day. Thats a workout in itself.

I do think i really need to do something for myself. Let dex stay with his dad or grandma for a bit and get out. I hate leaving him even to go pee. But i feel like I forgetting me. I have to remember to shower. My nails and toenails are in bad shape, and I live in pajamas and nursing tanks. Who am i again, other than mom. (which i love to be). So thats my goal for the week. Do SOMETHING for me, just me. By myself!

Life with a 7 week old!

Whooo, Dex is almost 7 weeks now. I cannnot believe it. Time flys when they are here doesn’t it. I keep trying to eat up every moment. I want to memorize that little baby smell. And the way he look up at me while he’s nursing.

Speaking of nursing, its finally going good. I mean for real this time. I didn’t know just how wrong we were doing it until I see the Lactation girls up at WIC. Helllo love them! They gave me a whole new approach. It finally comfortable. I’m glad I didn’t give up. I can see why so many woman do though. It is the hardest thing I’ve struggled with second to my weight:) and conquering it has gave me the confidence boost i need. And makes me feel like a super mommy. I was formula fed and proud of it. But its really cool to be able to nourish my little guy. I grew him, I nurish him. 

Then there’s my job status. Until i can find a good sitter, not a group sitter. I’m stuck at home. Which i really don’t mind. I love being with dexter all day long. But  we are hurting for cash. And we could use the money. Sooo until the time comes when i can officially go back to work I’m working online at home. There’s a couple of companies I’m working for. If your interested shoot me a line and ill give you the links. definetly not a full time job. But the hours are as flexible as i want them to be, pay is okay, and hey its a job i can do at home! Whether dex is napping or swinging in his swing.

hmmm oh and we are offically leaving to go to Arizona in two weeks.

Can you say excited!!

5 weeks old and growing

My little guy is growing soo fast. He weighs in at 12lbs now. Thats 4 and a half pounds gained since birth!!! EEk…hopefully it slows down a bit. I wanna keep him small. HEs Smiling up a storm when you talk or sing to him. I cant carry a tune too well but he loves it:) And hes working on holding his head up and can for a minute or two before it tuckers him out.

The nights are getting easier. Now that weve figured out breastfeeding enough to nurse at night in bed. It makes the night fly by. And we arent waking up for tooo long in between. I love it. We had started out giving alot of formula on top of pumping because i was having some latch problems with the little guy. But about 2 weeks ago we spent a whole day trying to get it right and we succeded. so now im just pumping when i want to have a bottle on hand for going out n about. And weve been formula free for several days. Wish us luck on this….its so much cheaper than buying formula. And something I truly wanted to accomplish.

In other news…my Darling niece had her First Birthday a week ago. And it was sooo much fun. I love that little girl sooo very much. And im so happy to of been a part of her special day.

And in 3 weeks we are taking a big roadtrip to Phoenix Az. For a family reunion. I cant wait to go back there its been a long while. Ive missed all my family soooo very very much. Im excited to take Cody and Dexter. Since neither have been obviously. Its such a beautiful area, mountains and lakes and all that fun.

Anyways my little sugar pie is waking up…i better run off to him<3

Dexters almost 3 weeks old!!

Wow...where has time gone. I have a 3 week old. He is growing like a weed and its killing me. I want to keep my tiny itty bitty newborn. Im excited though for what is to come in his future.
He had his two week appontment on monday. And he was up to 9lbs 7oz. and up an inch and a half. Which i totally believe because cute little outfits that fit last week just dont fit this week. Hes filling out a little on his skinny little legs.<3 god hes just precious. Im so happy hes finally here with me. I am finally feeling a little more like myself soreness wise. I dont wake up achy or anything. So thats good.
I think Cody is loving being a daddy too. Man oh man does this kid look just like him. And i love it.
We have our little family started and i couldnt be happier.

Im still adjusting, and my hormones are sooo wacky. But I know things will get better in that sense.
In other news I am soooooo phyched about our trip to Pheonix at the beginning of April. My whole family is driving out there for a big family reuinion kind of deal. I miss that place alot sometimes. It being our childhood home. I cant wait to show Cody the mountains and lakes and other places we used to go exploring. And of course meet all that family we have out there. Who knows when we will ever go again. So itll be nice for my Grandmother to meet him. She is my only grandparent sooo its a little importnant to me.

Anyways i better jump off of here. And eat some lunch while i have a minute to myself:)

a quickie...

This mommahood stuff is really amazing.....
Im running on less sleep than can be humanly possible yet im still sooooo happy.
How can i be sooo in love with this little boy.

A whole new world..

So.....He is offically here.
Dexter Ray was born at 9:50am on Saturday January 31st, 2009.

He weighed 7lbs 11.3 oz and is 20 inches long.


A lil birth story.....(warning-> talk of birth)
On thursday I did my usual things around the house. In the late afternoon my mom called and we discussed some labor symptoms I "thought" I had. She said she thought i should call the dr.s office and let them know.
They of course said come in. And even though i was wrong about the labor symptoms i thought i had. They did find my urine loaded with protein and my blood pressure was through the roof.
So they re took it a couple of times with no change and He finally deciced that he wanted me induced immediately. I started getting nervous.
Called Cody and headed to the hospital.

I got admitted at 5:30 and in my room shortly after. They started Cytotec to help me dilate at about 7pm. The contractions started soon after, but didnt et uncomfortable til later on. I went trough all 4 doses of cytotec in about 27 hours and still hadnt dilated to more than a loose 1cm. I was hungry and tired, and at this point was mad at the doctor. Because my blood pressure had gone way down without medication. As long as i stayed laying down. I was really wishing i could of started labor naturally on my own. The nurses changed shifts, and i got a really awesome one. She told me up front that they were either going to give me 12 hour break and start all over the next day or she could break my water and get this show on the road. I said bring on the water breaking. This was at about 10pm on friday night. She proceeded to break it very fast. And within minutes i was contracting. And just like she promised these contractions were hurting.
Now i originally planned to be a hardcore natural labor momma. But the pain is crazy. And breathing trhough it only worked for a few hours. I didnt bat an eyelash when she said I could get the epidural. I was hooked up before midnight. Slept peacfully til about 5am. Since after the epidural my contractions became more relaxed i was started on pitocin at around 2am.

Now the real fun started close to 6am. She came in and checked me and i was 6cm. I called my mom and told her it couldnt be long. I was also starting to feel alot of pressure with each contractions. And with each one i started feeling more and more pain. I told the nurse who had the epidural guy come check me. He said he wouldnt re dose me. That i didnt need it. I was pissed. As i was feeling everything and could feel and move my legs completely. shift change again at7am. The new nurse and epidural guy are trying to get me some comfort. He Redoses my epidural. And boom Nada nothing. Its not working. They say that they can re do it completely. And im not interested. The next couple of hours are a blur. The pain came with a vengence more and more with each Contraction. I was finding myself shutting down between them. Suddenly my body took over. And with each one the urge to push and actual pushing was happening. The nurse checked me and I was a 10. I started pushing. And Here came Dexter.
Pushing didnt take long. And the Dr walked in when dex was already starting to crown. My lil guy gave them some screams immediately. He was mad.

So was I. Apparently I tore along with the episiotomy. Third degree. OUchie....Other than that recovery was quick and i feel great.
Im soooo in love with this lil guy. I totally didnt realize how in love you can actually be with someone or something. Im falling hard for his daddy all over again as well. Father hood suits him.

Hes a cutie. Perfect as can be.
And life is great.
Minus the whole uncomfortableness im dealing with stiches and stuff.
Its brutal.
I better go now...little guy is waking up

Love yall

A joy...really

so I'm just a hop skip and a jump away from 39 weeks preggo. And while I know I know I might still be pregnant for 2 more weeks or so, Im not thinking I will be.

I dont know how much longer exactly. At what moment the ride into labor will begin. I do want to reflect however on the past 9 months. Before i meet my little one.

I will never forget the absolute joy and elation, filled with happy tears when I took those two pregnancy tests and actually saw another little pink line. Thanks To my mom and sister for pressuring me into buying them. I was in denial that I could be pregnant after all of the negative tests ive taken.

It was such a happy sweet moment to tell my husband, and see him well up in tears in the thought of a baby. And to know we were in this together.

I will never forget the first time I heard his little heartbeat at my first appointment. I was on cloud nine for weeks. And then when me and cody got to see his little body on the screen. The dr said he was very Photogenic.

Then a few weeks later we got to see him again and find out that he was a "son" and I couldnt of been happier.

We picked out his name, and started building our dreams for him.

Im head over heels with this little boy.
Its amazing to fall in love again.
Not only with him but with Cody as Well.

I cant wait to have both my guys together, along with my wonderful family.

I refuse to spend this post talking about being fat, and swollen, and in pain.

Because i also have this lil fella squirming around. Having the hiccups, and stealing my heart with every kick. We will never be closer than we are right now. <3

Come meet me when your ready Dexter :) Me and daddy cant wait to meet you.

38 weeks 1 day....and oh sooo ready

So ive had an interesting day to say the least.
I woke up and tried to take a shower. My water wasnt getting hot. Damnnnnit.
So after an attempt to relight the water heater had to run to my folks house.
I really wanted to be clean, i had a drs appt.
Got all showered and was on my way.

The appt moved fast. Thank goodness. I didnt wait an hour and a half.
By blood pressure was pretty high 157/94. I generally have high blood pressure but this was higher than norm. Plus my ankles are soooo swollen.
I almost got induced today.
Buuut my blood pressure went down to 144/87 and they said they thought id be okay but not to do anything at all. The said not even lauundry.
Crazy.

Allso She said i was progressing really well. Soft, slightly open, and his heads riiight there. So maybe he'll come on his own this weekend or soon and make it easier on both of us.

Im tired...and im just gonna go lay down.<3

So little time left...

Hmm im ALLlllllmost 38 weeks. Halfway at least.
Last night wins the award for most uncomfortable night of my life, second only to my night of terror with a kindey infection.

I have complained and complained about being uncomfortable. And to my suprise it just keeps getting worse. It boosts the anxiety to meet little Dex. But i know he'll be here soo soon no matter what. If the doctor asks about Induction, Im horribly tempted to say HELL YES!. The other part of me wants to let it happen when its time.

Im just gonna walk, have lots of Private time with hubby and eat irritable foods. Maybe we can kill two birds with one stone<3

Wanna see how ginormous I am!!

This was today at 37 weeks 4 days!!

And this was the day after Christmas
@ 34 weeks !!!

Now begins the waiting game...and just when will he come. At least if he comes anytime after today he'll be an AQUARIUS! like me and my momma.

woo hoo 37 weeks

Sooo...i got to 37 weeks!
And Im totally feeling the full term thing.
PRegnancy is great, but it aint always pretty.
And I think the dark side is these last weeks.
Im so anxious about his arrival. And i just cant get calm about it. ITs the same anxiety almost as when we were trying to get pregnant.
I want him to be good and ready, but I wouldnt mind that beeing sooooner than later.
Ive read so many risks and such about induction. But then again most babies I know were induced, and they were just fine and ready. So i guess we will just have to see whats in store for us.
My doctors appointment is tomorrow morning and im hoping they check to see if any magic is happening. If not im gonna do some good walking and working on getting my body going. IF its meant to happen it will. I really dont care to be pregnant another 4 weeks. EEK!

Other than that things are okay. Im trying a little harder to cook more things and be better at this housewifey stuff. Cause im not great at it. BUt im totally trying trust me.

Well i better get off of here and get something, anything done around this house.

Heres a rant....

Yeah i know....2 posts in the same day. Ill probably want to delete this tomorrow.
Im frustrated and just pissed off in general.
We can blame a good 60% on hormones i think. The other is frustrating people and things going on.

Dont worry Cody babe this has nothing to do with you. You are my light and my happiness.

Heres a short list of whats AILING me (IFYKWIM)
Warning it may get too detailed!

1. Selfish people who take your love and shit on it.
2. My body for being sooo tired.
3. My loose bowels.
   
4. This killer heartburn thats with me all of the time.
   
5. the jerk on the road that speeds past you , cuts you off, then jams on his brake and turns.
6. the jerk that rides your ass through school zones.
   
7. The dumb cats that have to dirty their litter box a million times a day. COME ON!

And everything else thats negative in my world right now.
Im just really in need of a good nights sleep.
Im in need of it being February and me seeing my baby.
Im in need of a big hug. I want to feel better.
I just want a break. And i dont even know from what.


To anyone that reads this, my apologies.
I needed to rant soooooo bad.
Now im gonna go and spend the weekend trying to nap.

Sooo I have an answer

To at least one question that was bugging me.
For the past month or so I've just been DRAINED. But I didnt think anything of it really. I just thought it was from being almost 9 months pregnant. Nope.
I had a follow up appoinment today because i took a spill onto my coffee table on New years Day. Well i guess all my blood work came back from a week before that and im Anemic now.
The doc prescribed me Repliva?? So hopefully it helps. I dont even care if I get (TMI WARNING) Constipated because I've had the opposite for longer than i can remember. And im sick and tired of running to the potty cause of it. Ive also been having some Contractions....I wasnt so sure what was going on at first. Theyre a lil different i think that Braxton hicks. But my belly gets oh so tight and i get oh so miserable....
Im super ready to feel better though. Its like i have the cough i cant kick to the curb, loose bowels, headaches, uncofortable body aches all the time and KILLER Heartburn that keeps my throat hurting all the time.

WHEW! Okay im offically done whining. I just really needed to. Haha

So LIl man is still kicking and hopefully growing stronger every day. I cant wait to meet him. And i hope the Anemia gets better so it doesnt affect at all. I think about him ALL day long. I cant wait to see when I go into labor. My family has a Board going on when ill deliver heehee:)
I wonder who will win!

Say a lil Prayer for our San Diego Chargers!!! They Play on Sunday...

Whew....

So its almost 36 weeks for us.
I cant wait to type "hey im 40 weeks"
Haha....Im tired, bloated, and I dont ever get sleep.

Theres a full moon this weekend. But im not so anxious to meet my little man that i want him to be that early. Charlotte was born at 35 weeks and did just great but i dont have that kind of luck. Being pregnant isnt really that bad. ITs still sooooo amazing to me that im carrying a BABY inside. No matter how many pregnant people and animals you see in life can prepare you for that. ITs crazy. When i can distinguish a little butt and leg im still so amazed. Ive packed my lil bags for the hospital just in case. Really it was just to feel like i was doing something. Ive had no energy to clean, or get things ready so i was sooo proud of myself for at least doing that. Today i painted some cute Palm Trees in Dexters Room. Sooo ill try really hard to take some pics of those. I promise!

Anyways...thats all for now.