A joy...really

so I'm just a hop skip and a jump away from 39 weeks preggo. And while I know I know I might still be pregnant for 2 more weeks or so, Im not thinking I will be.

I dont know how much longer exactly. At what moment the ride into labor will begin. I do want to reflect however on the past 9 months. Before i meet my little one.

I will never forget the absolute joy and elation, filled with happy tears when I took those two pregnancy tests and actually saw another little pink line. Thanks To my mom and sister for pressuring me into buying them. I was in denial that I could be pregnant after all of the negative tests ive taken.

It was such a happy sweet moment to tell my husband, and see him well up in tears in the thought of a baby. And to know we were in this together.

I will never forget the first time I heard his little heartbeat at my first appointment. I was on cloud nine for weeks. And then when me and cody got to see his little body on the screen. The dr said he was very Photogenic.

Then a few weeks later we got to see him again and find out that he was a "son" and I couldnt of been happier.

We picked out his name, and started building our dreams for him.

Im head over heels with this little boy.
Its amazing to fall in love again.
Not only with him but with Cody as Well.

I cant wait to have both my guys together, along with my wonderful family.

I refuse to spend this post talking about being fat, and swollen, and in pain.

Because i also have this lil fella squirming around. Having the hiccups, and stealing my heart with every kick. We will never be closer than we are right now. <3

Come meet me when your ready Dexter :) Me and daddy cant wait to meet you.

38 weeks 1 day....and oh sooo ready

So ive had an interesting day to say the least.
I woke up and tried to take a shower. My water wasnt getting hot. Damnnnnit.
So after an attempt to relight the water heater had to run to my folks house.
I really wanted to be clean, i had a drs appt.
Got all showered and was on my way.

The appt moved fast. Thank goodness. I didnt wait an hour and a half.
By blood pressure was pretty high 157/94. I generally have high blood pressure but this was higher than norm. Plus my ankles are soooo swollen.
I almost got induced today.
Buuut my blood pressure went down to 144/87 and they said they thought id be okay but not to do anything at all. The said not even lauundry.
Crazy.

Allso She said i was progressing really well. Soft, slightly open, and his heads riiight there. So maybe he'll come on his own this weekend or soon and make it easier on both of us.

Im tired...and im just gonna go lay down.<3

So little time left...

Hmm im ALLlllllmost 38 weeks. Halfway at least.
Last night wins the award for most uncomfortable night of my life, second only to my night of terror with a kindey infection.

I have complained and complained about being uncomfortable. And to my suprise it just keeps getting worse. It boosts the anxiety to meet little Dex. But i know he'll be here soo soon no matter what. If the doctor asks about Induction, Im horribly tempted to say HELL YES!. The other part of me wants to let it happen when its time.

Im just gonna walk, have lots of Private time with hubby and eat irritable foods. Maybe we can kill two birds with one stone<3

Wanna see how ginormous I am!!

This was today at 37 weeks 4 days!!

And this was the day after Christmas
@ 34 weeks !!!

Now begins the waiting game...and just when will he come. At least if he comes anytime after today he'll be an AQUARIUS! like me and my momma.

woo hoo 37 weeks

Sooo...i got to 37 weeks!
And Im totally feeling the full term thing.
PRegnancy is great, but it aint always pretty.
And I think the dark side is these last weeks.
Im so anxious about his arrival. And i just cant get calm about it. ITs the same anxiety almost as when we were trying to get pregnant.
I want him to be good and ready, but I wouldnt mind that beeing sooooner than later.
Ive read so many risks and such about induction. But then again most babies I know were induced, and they were just fine and ready. So i guess we will just have to see whats in store for us.
My doctors appointment is tomorrow morning and im hoping they check to see if any magic is happening. If not im gonna do some good walking and working on getting my body going. IF its meant to happen it will. I really dont care to be pregnant another 4 weeks. EEK!

Other than that things are okay. Im trying a little harder to cook more things and be better at this housewifey stuff. Cause im not great at it. BUt im totally trying trust me.

Well i better get off of here and get something, anything done around this house.

Heres a rant....

Yeah i know....2 posts in the same day. Ill probably want to delete this tomorrow.
Im frustrated and just pissed off in general.
We can blame a good 60% on hormones i think. The other is frustrating people and things going on.

Dont worry Cody babe this has nothing to do with you. You are my light and my happiness.

Heres a short list of whats AILING me (IFYKWIM)
Warning it may get too detailed!

1. Selfish people who take your love and shit on it.
2. My body for being sooo tired.
3. My loose bowels.
   
4. This killer heartburn thats with me all of the time.
   
5. the jerk on the road that speeds past you , cuts you off, then jams on his brake and turns.
6. the jerk that rides your ass through school zones.
   
7. The dumb cats that have to dirty their litter box a million times a day. COME ON!

And everything else thats negative in my world right now.
Im just really in need of a good nights sleep.
Im in need of it being February and me seeing my baby.
Im in need of a big hug. I want to feel better.
I just want a break. And i dont even know from what.


To anyone that reads this, my apologies.
I needed to rant soooooo bad.
Now im gonna go and spend the weekend trying to nap.

Sooo I have an answer

To at least one question that was bugging me.
For the past month or so I've just been DRAINED. But I didnt think anything of it really. I just thought it was from being almost 9 months pregnant. Nope.
I had a follow up appoinment today because i took a spill onto my coffee table on New years Day. Well i guess all my blood work came back from a week before that and im Anemic now.
The doc prescribed me Repliva?? So hopefully it helps. I dont even care if I get (TMI WARNING) Constipated because I've had the opposite for longer than i can remember. And im sick and tired of running to the potty cause of it. Ive also been having some Contractions....I wasnt so sure what was going on at first. Theyre a lil different i think that Braxton hicks. But my belly gets oh so tight and i get oh so miserable....
Im super ready to feel better though. Its like i have the cough i cant kick to the curb, loose bowels, headaches, uncofortable body aches all the time and KILLER Heartburn that keeps my throat hurting all the time.

WHEW! Okay im offically done whining. I just really needed to. Haha

So LIl man is still kicking and hopefully growing stronger every day. I cant wait to meet him. And i hope the Anemia gets better so it doesnt affect at all. I think about him ALL day long. I cant wait to see when I go into labor. My family has a Board going on when ill deliver heehee:)
I wonder who will win!

Say a lil Prayer for our San Diego Chargers!!! They Play on Sunday...

Whew....

So its almost 36 weeks for us.
I cant wait to type "hey im 40 weeks"
Haha....Im tired, bloated, and I dont ever get sleep.

Theres a full moon this weekend. But im not so anxious to meet my little man that i want him to be that early. Charlotte was born at 35 weeks and did just great but i dont have that kind of luck. Being pregnant isnt really that bad. ITs still sooooo amazing to me that im carrying a BABY inside. No matter how many pregnant people and animals you see in life can prepare you for that. ITs crazy. When i can distinguish a little butt and leg im still so amazed. Ive packed my lil bags for the hospital just in case. Really it was just to feel like i was doing something. Ive had no energy to clean, or get things ready so i was sooo proud of myself for at least doing that. Today i painted some cute Palm Trees in Dexters Room. Sooo ill try really hard to take some pics of those. I promise!

Anyways...thats all for now.