So....tough decision but the best one.

Tonight I made a horribly tough decision but in the end it will be the best one. After going back to work 2 months ago we started on a journey that had its perks but also great downfalls. My child is sick every week from daycare and it is sooo expensive.
Though we come out slightly ahead in the end it just doesnt add up to be worth the trouble for the small amount of extra cash after daycare. I can make half of the extra cash by working online and the rest is just disposable income that we wont miss. And if we do we will just get over it.

I quit tonight. I sent in a letter of resignation like a wimp. It KILLED me to be away from my child everyday. I just cannot do it. And that was not the only reason but it sure was my main one. I liked getting out of the house and all but I feel sooo bad that my child has gotten sick constantly because of Daycare. Not only that But I leave the house at 8am to take him to daycare and go to work and I do not get home until almost 7 each day. Thats alot of time I am missing in his little world. Is that worth a couple hundred bucks? Nope. Its not even worth 500 bucks or 1000. I can work hard from home and get a night job and be happier as a mother that can spend the day teaching, feeding, snuggling, and kissing on my sweet son. On top of that it will enrich my marriage which fell unto alot of stress with going back to work.

Soo....who knows where this saga goes. Wish me luck.
I do know I am the happiest momma on earth that I get to smell my sweet baby and cuddle him whenever I please now. I have a wonderful husband that supports my decisions fully and completely and an understanding family. I am a rich woman when it comes to life. And I am happy in that.

Fall away

I am so glad its fall...

So we bought a house!!!! We should close on it in a couple weeks. We are in love with it and its a perfect starter home. Its not huge but we passed up bigger houses for the uniqueness that this one has. Ill post some pics after we get the keys! Yay for no more rent house. I hate this place and Im ready to leave.

Home buying is sooo stressful. It was a big test for us in our marriage but we passed it! You never really know everything about each other I guess. But that's the beauty of it. I love my boys.

Work has been great. I am staying very busy with everything. The last of the old crew quit this past week which wasnt a suprise. Im actually relieved as there was alot of tension. But we have an awesome new crew going and we are more productive than ever and getting better everyday.



So Dex is 7 months old. Where did time go? He is try sooooo hard to crawl but it will probably be halloween before he does it. He babbles all the time and can feed himself (trys to). He is doing good at daycare but I still hate that I cannot be here all the time with him. Maybe one day in the future or definetly when #2 comes around I will be able to.

Lets head to the south beach...

Im on the South Beach Diet (way of life) and loving it. Granted I am only on week 1 about to start week 2 of Phase 1. I have already lost 7 lbs. I am pretty sure thats water weight but hey its weight. I finally feel like I CAN DO THIS. I can get down to the weight that I maintained all through high school and so on. When I met cody I started gaining and 6 years ago I weighed around 145ish. And on my tall frame thats pretty good. I liked that size. I had curves but could wear cute clothes. I'd settle for getting down to 155 or 160. Both of those weight are way better than the 200lbish that Ive been before and after Dexter. I am sooo thankful that ALL of my baby weight came off after Dex. Now its time to work on all the fat that came before him. Im determined to lose it. And now I finally have a plan and motivation.

Today I was having some killer sugar cravings...I mean KILLER. So I decided to make some South Beach friendly brownies since I was also making regular ones for my mom.

They are pretty yummy.

Heres the RECIPE

Chocolate Black Bean Brownies

1 can black beans (can use white beans instead), drained, rinsed well, drained
4 large eggs
1 tsp. baking powder
3 - 4 T. unsweetened cocoa powder (good quality)
1/2 tsp. espresso powder (optional) [see my note just below]
1 tsp. vanilla
2 or 3 T. oil
2/3 - 3/4 c. Splenda
walnuts
dark/semisweet chocolate chips

(I sometimes add 1/2 tsp. almond extract for a change of flavor. I guess you could experiment here too with other extracts. This last time I added Watkins Caramel extract--that is now my favorite addition)

Make sure to put 2 eggs, beans, remaining ingredients (except nuts and chips), then last 2 eggs. Your blender will have a harder time blending the black beans. (can try a food processor, but my blender works better at fully incorporating the beans). Stir in walnuts and chips (or sprinkle over the top after batter is in pan). Pour into a sprayed 8 x 8 pan. Bake at 350 or 375 25-30 min.


I wrapped mine and froze them afterwards. I had one today while lounging in my bath robe. (a small portion *pat on back* with some Lite Cool Whip.

Now Im ready for a healthy dinner and another great start tomorrow.

Busy bee's

Sorry for no update in awhile.
We have been busy busy with work and daycare, etc. Which by the way is going well. Our daycare is fabulous so far and Dex is always so happy when I drop him off/ or pick him up. We only have had one set back lately with a case of what we believe was Roseola. Which causes high fevers and is followed by a rash over the body. It was his first real sickness and it was tough on the whole family. But daddy gave him some good snuggles and got to stay home with him one day, and I stayed home the next day to give him Motherly loving:) And we all survived.

Work for me has been fun, and tiring at the same time. I've adjusted well. I get home a little before 7 and that seems so late. But I still am getting at least 3-4 hours after I get home with Dexter and Cody before bed along with a couple hours before he goes to daycare.

In other news Cody and I had an awesome movie date on Saturday. It made me feel like a teenager again. Holding hands and cuddling while watch Harry Potter.

Im also reading The Sookie Stackhouse Series. They are the books that HBO's TrueBlood is based on. Hello awesome!! Way better than twilight in my opinion. I'm on book 7 of 9.


I almost forgot! Dexter is 10 days away from being 6 months old. He is 22lbs and 28 inches long. So basically he's the size of a 1 year old. He looks more like his handsome Daddy everyday. He has sitting down conquered until he see's something interesting then he faceplants. He wants to crawl bad but is just not coordinated enough just yet. And that mysterious tooth has yet to show back up. We are still not back to sleeping through the night but its no biggie. He will eventually. He is growing so much constantly I can totally understand why he is restless at night.

Well I guess that's all for now. I will try to find something fun to blog about later.

Shots suck.

Dex finally got his first shots this past tuesday. They were his 2mnths since I neglected to get them. He hated it and felt miserable afterwords. This round was to appease the people around me but it will be his last round for quite awhile. I have received my exemption form and plan to use it til he's at least a few years old. Whats in shots just scares me. And I didnt have any til I was 5.

Anyways off of the old shots...

This weekend should be awesome! I plan to have some prickly pear margaritas:) And watch the parade.

Dexter's little tooth has still not reappeared. Oh hum.

I go back to work on Tuesday!! I'm really excited about working. Just not the leave my baby at daycare part. Poor poor boy:( I've heard great things about his daycare though so that helps ease the worry.

Have a happy 4th everyone!!

Going back to work, and teeth?

Hello everyone. So no update on the shots because I was given the wrong date for the appointment. Good thing though, because I think me and Dex have a cold going on. Poor baby:(

Speaking of poor baby. Have you ever heard of a tooth showing up then disappearing? Today Dex clearly had a little tooth poking through on the bottom. There was also a little red blister next to it. I was soo excited. He took a nap and had some tylenol and by the time Cody came home it was gone. Im going crazy. He is also doing really good at sitting up unsupported. For at least a minute! Im crazy proud.

And in some bittersweet news! Im going back to work! Yay because geesh I miss work. But ughh because I love my son and I am gonna miss him something crazy. I feel like Im going to miss out on his days:(
I will be going back to the Pet Store. Which makes me soo excited. I hated having to quit when I found out I was preggo a year exactly ago. I had intention of being a stay at home mom for at least a year but times are tough and the opprotunity presented itself now. It will be a good thing for us. I cannot wait to get back into the swing of things. Dexter will start daycare. UGH! But I found a great one by accident really. Hopefully it will all fit together just right.

I better get off of here and stop rambling.

Almost 5 months.

So in preparing to go to Daycare eventually Dex has to get his shots. Tomorrow to be exact. Originally I though I would stay Home until he went to school. But I need to get a job badly. It will help us pay off some things. Ugh I hate it. I do not want him to be hurting. But even more I do not want some adverse reaction to happen. So wish us luck. Ill update with some new pics that are dying to get off my camera and with how he did tomorrow night or the next.